badbastion

I'm alive, I swear!

I've had three people ask about me in the past week, so I figure it's time for a brief update.

I've been kind of taking a break from my computer. It feels like I've been sick forever when in reality I've been sick, then gotten better, then gotten sick again over and over. Right now I feel like I've got pneumonia or the flu or something, but I don't have a fever, just everything else. So it hasn't been all sick days, but enough that I'm constantly worn down. I've also been depressed like nobody's business. So all socializing, internet or rl, has been unappealing to me. I keep hoping I'll come out of this funk and have a few *up* days to balance it out, but if wishes were fishes, you know? As it is now, I spend most of my time sleeping and/or listening to horror podcasts/audiobooks.

I know I have outstanding commissions. I fully intend to get to them asap. Things have just conspired to keep me art-blocked and tired and not in any good mental place to be creative. I'm so sorry for the delay, those of you who have been waiting.

My Christmas day was good thanks for my boyfriend being awesome, and my New Year's Eve was okay, but other than that, I'm glad 2015 is over. Hopefully 2016 will give me an upswing soon.

I do miss you guys, and I'm sorry I haven't been around to read and comment and participate in fannish things, or other things. Hopefully I'll be back on my feet sooner than later, and I can join the fun again.

Hello friends!

I really have been absent a lot, and it's always art block and/or depression (usually both) that kind of shuts me down. I'm feeling a little better these days (got off a medication that it turns out was actually depressing my system, instead of the way it was supposed to work, lol) and I've been trying to get back into the swing of drawing.

I'm also feeling drawn to some of my old fandoms, and some new stuff I've been reading and watching, and when I made this account, i did it to kind of compartmentalize my fandom life. Before SPN, I was primarily into anime/manga/illustrated fandoms for years, and that's what I feel myself gravitating towards right this minute. That, and OCs, which feel like fit better in that category. So I'll be spending some time at my old account. I'm not abandoning SPN at all! We're just kind of seeing other people, haha. I've also been watching Teen Wofl, so who knows if there will be TW fan stuff happening at this account.

If you're interested in following my other stuff, I'm at imlikat on LJ, imlikat on tumblr, and imlikat on y!gallery (you have to have a y!gallery account to access that last one.) So the plan is that I'll be around here, I'll be around there, and I hope to be more in contact with my friends at both accounts :)

So I had a good two days of Thanksgiving, lots of turkey and lots of walks to offset the pie, lol. I hope you all had a good one too!

Then this morning I watched 9x08 and I am SALIVATING for some fic

( spoilers under the cut )

If you know of any fics dealing with these things, please, pleeeease link me to them! I will love you so hard, you don't even know.

*I FIXED MY TABLET.

*I FIXED MY TABLETTTT

*every bone in my body says LIVESTREAM TOMORROW

*Signed up for spn_j2_bigbang! I got my first choice with a really great-sounding story, and my author is super nice and friendly! And most of the other ones I was interested in were claimed by super artists, and i'm already looking forward to seeing the end results @_@ (There were SO many excellent-sounding stories; my first narrowed-down list was almost twenty summaries long, and it was all sam/dean. You authors have outdone yourselves!)

*If you are an artist for the bigbang, there is an art beta post at omgspnbigbang right here. Sign up as a possible art beta or bookmark it for later! I've never seen a thing like that, and I think it's really cool :3 I have signed up offering my beta services for, among other things, "advice on genitals and butts and realism of positioning" Jesus, I shouldn't leave serious comments when I'm giddy, lol.

It's so strange to have a relatively clean plate, art-wise. I think I'm gonna livestream tonight (starting pretty late), then draw one last thing I owe somebody, then kind of take a break on the art. If I want to draw something, I will, but if not, I'll go and play a game or read some horror manga or something \o/ I do believe there are some Junji Ito stories on the internet that are new to me, plus I have a few series I was reading. (If anyone shares my love for horror and guro, I would love some links. On tumblr, I watch hellyeahhorrormanga, and I find a lot of things through that blog. But I can't always find where to read them! lol)

Speaking of reading, I am SOOO BEHIND! When the bigbang season happened, I was so busy arting for my own things that I didn't really try to keep up with all the fic coming out. There was SO MUCH. I've got a lot of it bookmarked, and hopefully I can read a big chunk of that. I look forward to it; some of those summaries sounded amazing. lol Great Job, SPN Fandom! So many creative people, it's wonderful.

ALSO, years ago, I tried my hand at doing podfic as part of a self-esteem raising thing? Like, I was (and still kind of am) embarrassed of my voice and the way I speak, and I tried to conquer that by recording a few fics and (eep) sharing them with ~THE WORLD. Okay, so like 50 people total listened to my podfics. It helped though! I'm still a little insecure about it, but podficcing was fun, mistakes and mushmouth and all. I'd like to do it again (but by NO means at the same output level of my art, lol.) SOOOO I think it would be cool if a few people would link me to their own fics, and I could mangle record them :)

*Any rating works for me, but please nothing over 2000 words, and please stick to pairings/characters I already do.

*Give me a link to one or two stories please; I have trouble choosing if someone says "any of my stories would be great." Too much to process! :P

*I'll probably stop at the first five or six or something.

*There's no guarantee it'll get recorded--I've found that there are some writers whose rhythms or dialog just flummox me, and it has nothing to do with how good a fic is. I'm a novice, see, haha.

*Also, if aspects of the story are wildly outside of my interests, I'll... probably just skip it, sorry.

ETA: Thank you all! I think I've got enough experimental subjects, haha. Though if anyone wants to throw a Sam/Castiel fic my way to practice on, I'd be happy to give that one a try, too :)

*First off, the auction that fandomaid has put together as a fundraising campaign to help those who were affected by Superstorm Sandy is almost over; bidding ends Thursday, November 29th at 5 PM American EST/10 PM GMT. fandomaid's front page should have answers to any of your questions, and they have a post where you can ask questions, as well.

I have a thread up if you want to bid on an art from me. It is already much higher than I'd expected it to go, but it's for a good cause, so I'm really happy about it :)

*Continuing on: Have I missed anything? I've dumped stuff on tumblr and faved pretty things there, but haven't had time to really dig into my meatier f-page over here. Are there any posts that I need to see? Did you message or email me and I failed to respond? Did someone post something epic that my life would be incomplete without? lol, I am being kind of lazy with this, but I watch so many people and comms, there's no way I could catch up on my own.

(Still moving. Argh. Don't wanna talk about it, lol.)

*And then: People have been writing stories for my pictures. I LOVE LOVE LOVE that this happens. LOVE IT. I have absolutely no problem with multiple people writing their take on one piece; it's happened before, and I love seeing the different ways people go with the same image. I think it's really amazing. So if you have the urge to write for anything, please do! But if you would be uncomfortable knowing you may not be the only person writing for a pic, please keep that in mind.

Here's another thing that many of you may have already learned: my memory is HORRIBLE. Like, it takes me 15 minutes to get out the door because I keep forgetting things, and I can't remember if I've forgotten a thing, and I'll remember something I forgot halfway to the car, etc, lol. Names and agreements and obligations and emails and comments, I can totally forget. Now that I'm getting settled in, it'll be a little better, b/c I'll have my post-it notes once I find them, haha.

I think what I was saying was, if you've created something inspired my something I've done, you are FANTASTIC and I am really grateful. Aaaand it's likely that I don't have a link to it. So if you have, please leave the link here in the comments, because I do plan on making a post for these kinds of things. Thank youuuu!

Hope all of you had a good holiday weekend! :)

Hope you all had, or are continuing to have, an excellent Halloween, and a good All Souls Day tomorrow!

I got some cute pumpkin cookies :) Thanks to novakev, essene, dolnmoon, memoonster, heliokleia and cherry916, I loved getting em :D

Unfortunately, I've been too busy to draw anything for Halloween, but I did find this unintentionally hilarious Alistair practice sketch, which I've made into a spinny thing for your amusement.



Happy Spooky Day!

I often livestream - I draw in Paint Tool Sai while I stream an image of my desktop, and chat with the people who come by.

So that I don't spam people's f-list every time I start a stream, I'm using this journal entry as a tracking point. I'll leave a comment on this journal. You can track that comment or this journal, and I'll reply to it whenever I begin a stream. That way it'll show up in your email or inbox.

My livestream is here: livestream.com/badbastion

A warning: it is often NSFW, sometimes VERY NSFW. Please dont attend if you are under 18. Additionally, any kind of bashing or rudeness is not cool in my chatbox, so I will kick you out if you are being an assbutt. Also, check your volume before you click the link - I often listen to music, and sometimes the broadcaster plays it REALLY LOUDLY!

So drop in if you like; we don't have to be friends--we don't even have to had talked to each other before :) Feel free to quietly watch or participate in the chat, whatever floats your boat!