badbastion

Hi! I finally found a free alternative to Livestream, which now makes you pay $20-something a month to use their services -__-

https://picarto.tv/badbastion

I'll be drawing just whatever, probably SPN,  possibly NSFW. I am rusty, but I've been drawing a little, and I'm having fun with it again : ) I don't know how long I'll be on, but drop in if you like!

Note: My channel is registered as NSFW, so you  may have to get an account (it's free and easy) and set your settings to allow you to see NSFW content. If you want to come but can't find the place to fix your settings, leave me a comment and I'll try to tell you how : ) Who knows, you might just have to click a box that says "I am over 18."

Hope to see a few people there!

Title: xoxo
Artist: badbastion
Pairing: Dean/Sam
Rating: G
Summary: a hug from behind, with a gentle shoulder kiss
Warnings/Content: p.s. Dean's not pregnant or fat - we'll just call that a food baby, lol





( hugs )

Good news! My boyfriend will be getting his first disability check at the first of next month :)

We don't know when he's getting his backpay, but it's not going to be much as he's not getting much monthly (but enough to get us by! \o/) The backpay's going toward work on our car, which is fine, because the car needs the work and we wouldn't be able to do it otherwise :)

Thanks to all you kind and giving souls who helped us out through our time of trouble. Without your generosity, I don't know where we'd be right now. Or how we'd get there.

In other news, I've been very depressed for months now. I had a few days where I thought I was starting to see the light, but nope, back in the hole. I'm not going to talk too much about that, but it *has* been affecting my drawing (if you've noticed, I haven't been a posting machine lately.) I've been hardcore artblocked for a couple of months. /o\

So commissions are taking longer than expected. Those of you who have commissioned me, please be patient - I never intended to just take the money and run. I may have to do some self-indulgent arting to get the juices to flow again, if they will flow anytime soon, so if you see non-commissioned stuff pop up, that's what's going on.

If you commissioned me and you'd like a refund because you don't want the wait, that's entirely understandable, and I'd be happy to work with you. Just send me a PM or an email. Though please bear in mind that you may not be the only one wanting a refund, so I may have to spread them out over time or set up payment plans, and I won't be able to send out any money back until next month. I hope that'll work out okay with everyone involved.

In OTHER other news, I can't wait for the Hellatus to be over! Only one more month! :D The Darkness, here we come!

Thank you SO MUCH everyone, for the birthday messages and comments and picspam and v-gifts and delicious fic. I had a good day :) I got steak and broccoli and cake and a balloon and a brand new, loud and strong as fuck box fan, and my panic attack at the restaurant was only very mild and short, lol, and I managed not to cry! I think this was the first birthday in 10 years I didn't cry for some reason or another. So it went down as an A+ day for me :D:D:D

Yesterday I ate my leftovers and some more cake, and cleaned the house some, and tried unsuccessfully to work on commissions. I did finish a podfic, though. And I got all my laundry done.

I've got alot of crap to do tomorrow, including picking up meds, going to the food stamps office for an appointment, cleaning the house better because I think our A/C's going out and we're going to have to get the maintenance men in poking around, so. And there's no way we can deal with no air in June in southern Arkansas, so we've got to get them in ASAP. And, I need to get back to work on commissions after all that.

But no cleaning today. I need a day to recharge and do like, nothing. I'll probably do some of the nothingat my mom's house, where their air works and they keep it nice and cool. I might do a livestream later, or in a few minutes, depending on when I want to go over there. Just some random stuff probably, maybe porn, idk. I might try to draw and find out that nothing comes out, but at least for once it'll be at a decent hour, lol! Instead of 3 am when I can't sleep haha

Firstly, and most importantly, the lovely, talented and generous dolavine/dolnmoon is having surgery soon, and won't have enough money to cover bills. She's helped me and many other people out in the past but she's in a bind now, so if you can help even a little, here's her GoFundMe page where you can donate or find more info.

Secondly, oh man I am biting my fingernails for the spn-j2-bigbang claims! I can't wait to see all the prompts that go up on Friday. I'm usually onn the art side of these, so it's a new kind of excitement for me, being a writer this year, and a new kind of nervousness, hoping someone will pick our story! I can't wait, ahhhh!

Thirdly, hi, how have you all been? I've not been around much as I was having a really rough time of it for a while, but I've been doing better lately :) Now I'm working on draft revisions and commissions, so I'm keeping busy. Plus I've started to go to Zumba twice a week, and it's fun, even if I can't get through the whole hour yet. I am out of shape, lol.

So I'm off to Zumba right now. If I'm in the mood, there may be a livestream later. o/

SPN_J2_BIGBANG DRAFT IS FINISHED

YEEEEAAAAAHHHHHH

I'm cowriting with thursdaysisters, and we just put the "The End" on it about fifteen minutes ago. I'm so excited and I feel so successful, because I've never taken on a writing project this big and plotty before and actually gotten to the end of it.

It still needs some serious editing, of course. But right this minute I don't know what to do with myself, and I have lots of feels that I can't identify, lol.

BUT IT'S DONE

Now I'm gonna eat some lunch or take a nap or livestream or watch last night's SPN ep or... idk.

:D


(btw, thanks for all the awesome J2 recs in my last journal! My flist is awesome <3)

Thank you all for your help, kindness and good thoughts. You've really helped me out, and I can't say how much I appreciate it. You guys are the best.