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Swiped from  emmatheslayer and milly_gal

Instead of picking 5 people to tag - if you see this meme and want to do it, consider yourself tagged!

    List 1-10 pairings/prompts that you have been dying to read. Maybe it's a really rare pairing or something you've requested on any of the past smut memes/exchanges/etc which haven't been fulfilled.
    When you see this posted on your friends' journals, you may do one of the following:
        Write it.
        Link to one that's already been written, whether by you or someone else.
        Talk about if you are also interested in this type of fic/think this pairing would be fun.
        Nothing - it's just a wishlist! It's a conversations starter and just for fun.
    There are no length or rating limits, and prompts may be duplicated. Be specific in your prompts particularly in reference to any requirements that may hinder your appreciation of the fic.
    There is no deadline for this, but once your ten prompts have been written to your satisfaction you are welcome to make a new post starting over. You may write your own prompts if you want. If your tastes change, you can certainly switch out one prompt for another at any time.

TO REITERATE: this is not a "request" list but a "wish" list, if anything inspires you and you want to write it, I'd be super happy, but I'm not trying to fish for people to write my dream fic here, it's just in good fun.

Here's some things:

Talk to me : D )

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about quitting drinking, so fair warning. I'll mark each sobriety post with the number of days sober I have and place possibly everything under a cut, so it'll be avoidable if you want to avoid it.

I'll also be crossposting to LJ. I just want to have this on my major platforms, and I keep forgetting to use DW. So I'll be using it.

All right then, later!
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Stolen from [ profile] chemm80 with some alterations

I keep saying I'm going to post more and not actually doing anything about it, so let's start 2017 off in a positive way with a Pay It Forward meme. The first 6 people to comment (and more if I can manage it) will receive a surprise from me at some point in 2017 — anything from a book, a ticket, something home-grown or made, a sketch, a postcard, absolutely any surprise! It will happen when the mood comes over me and I find something that I believe would suit you and make you happy.

(If you don't like surprises and would rather have something off a wishlist and/or some warning, let me know in your comment. The goal is to make you happy.)

If you can, post this in your own journal and pay it forward. Let's do more kind and loving things for each other in 2017, without any reason other than to make each other smile and show that we think of each other.

Screening comments in case you want to leave an address or a wishlist link. OR BOTH. DUN DUN DUN

Or! You can email me at badbastion at and I will also get that :)
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Like the title says, is anyone livestreaming or group chatting tonight? I've got a lonely night ahead of me and would like to spend it with people :)

If nobody is LSing or group chatting tonight, would anyone like me to set up a livestream? I probably won't be drawing, since I can't draw for these last few months or so, but we could chat and stuff :)

ETA: Never mind about livestreaming, apparently LS switched to a paying model, and I can't afford $42 a month to chat on livestream. Saaad. But if anyone still wants to chat, i can use or something :) ETA2: Or if you're on skype, we can chat there!

ETA3: Good night, and have a happy and safe New Year! <3
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My Christmas was............. okay lol. I gave my bf some good gifts, got some good gifts in return, including some cute plushies that I'm sleeping with now and a pair of Squirtle slippers. The problem was, we exchanged presents more than a week before xmas, so on the day, we didn't ahve much to do. We had some hanburger helper, and I took two naps, which I probably shouldn't have done.

One of the things I got him for xmas was a set of bento boxes and books and accoutrements, with the promise that I'd start making bento lunches for us. Bento lunches are good for veggie forcing and portion control, both of which we need. I haven't made bento lunches every day, but I have on several days, and he's been gratifyingly impressed by the presentation and content. Even though the very first one had WAAAAAY too much salt on the rice balls lol.

I've taken pics of some of them, and I'll share them soon. Some of them have turned out pretty cute :3 It's nice to be able to use my creative urges, even if it's not in the arena I'd like to use them in.

I go back to work on Friday, after my boss giving me two weeks off work for the meds to kick in again. I was able to get back on my antipsychotic after a visit to the free Christian Clinic in town (and a doctor who didn't believe me at first about how nuts I was...... eventually I had to show him my self-harm scars (he asked me to show him), and after that he was all concern and compassion @__@ How mortifying and scary! But at least it had good results.) I'm still off one of my antidepressants, and my therapist tells me not to worry, I feel off because I *am* off, and I'll feel better once I get back on that one after the beginning of them month when I get meds coverage again. *phew* I'm tired of feeling crazy.

But I better not fel too crazy, bc I work Fri, Sat, Tues, Wed, Thurs, Fri. I don't think I can get away with going home early or calling in any more. I have a feeling I've stretched my boss's goodwill to the breaking point, and I really appreciate her concern and understanding, but I don't think I can p ush it much further. I'll just have to do the best I can.

I guess if I have to call in or go home early, I have to. But my therpaist says that's negative imagery, and that I should focus on the positive. Like, wow, I actually can go into work and work a few hours without wanting to scream until my lungs explode and throw sauce all over the floor and steal from the till and do anything I can to get fired on the spot lol. Mannnnn, I was having some serious almost-unavoidable compulsions while I was off my meds @__@ It took almost all I had to keep from doing crazy things.

But yeah, that's where I am right now. I go back to my meds doc on the 5th of Jan to get back on my normal meds, and then it'll take a little while for me to readjust, and then hopefully I'll be "normal" again. Hopefully. Normal. *phew*
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I've been off my meds since the end of October. I'm back on most of them now, or reasonable facsimiles thereof, thanks to a very sympathetic doctor and Walmart's $4 scrip plan. One of them was still $40, but I had to have it, it's my most helpful one. But I'm still not right in the head. This sucks.

I'm working like 15 hours a week at a local pizza place, and I've already called in a few times in the two months I've been working there. I had a full-on, hyperventilating, sobbing panic freakout at work the other day, and I had to explain to my boss what my deal was. She was also sympathetic, but it was so shaming and embarrassing.

She actually wanted to promote me before this happened. I don't know where that stands now.

So yeah, I'm just freaking out now. I have a few days off to get used to the new truncated meds (they couldn't get me back on two of them because the price was prohibitive, like $900 each or something -__-) but hopefully I'll be better when I go back to work on Tuesday.

I wish I had a more positive post, hopefully I will soon.
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holiday love meme 2016
my thread here

I need some love right now! I will try to go through and leave some love on other people's threads : )
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I'm trying to find things to get me back to doing creative stuff again. I was thinking that I should try the horror route, because that's my favorite of all genres of all time. But the problem is, I can never get any good ideas!

So flist, do you have any horror writing/art prompts? If you do, I might use them, I might not, depending on if something sparks in my head. Be as vague or specific as you like, though I may change things.

Also - what are you most afraid of? I'm just curious. Me, I'm scared of the dark, lol, because I imagine that there are things in it. I can't look out windows at night, too scary.

Also also - does anyone know of any good sites to get writing prompts? I don't even know where to start looking, other than the obvious, which would be google. But I'd like to use something that someone has already tried and likes.

Thanks a lot for any ideas you can give me, I really appreciate it!
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So, we got moved in and are still unpacking. We're most of the way done, just getting the last touches. The drive up here was pretty uneventful, save for the part where we had to put the cats in their carrier for the trip and they freaked the fuck out and started hissing and growling like little wild things. It was scary; I was afraid they'd be forever changed, but they calmed down after a few days in the new apartment, and are back to normal now, phew!

We've finally got internet! It was tough going so long without it, but hey, we got a lot of unpacking done, lol. There is no waaaay I'm ever going to catch up on my flist backlog, so if there's anything I should know about, please link me to the post :)

In other news, my grandmother died the day before we moved. She hung on for a few painful days in the hospital, and it was almost a relief when she passed. She was really not doing well, in a lot of pain and almost completely unresponsive by the end. I'm glad I got to see her while she was still lucid, and to tell her I loved her and hear her tell me back. I missed her memorial, but my mother tells me it was lovely. I did get to go to a big family lunch the day she passed away, so I was able to see a lot of my big extended family before I left. So, good things and bad things. I'll miss my Memaw. She was a really big part of my life growing up, and though we drifted apart as I grew into adulthood and I never saw her as often as I should have, I still loved her a lot. But she lived a long, full life, leaving something like 7 children, 12 grandchildren, and 6 great-grandchildren who all loved her behind. I'm coping better than expected. Maybe it just hasn't really hit me yet, in the midst of all the moving chaos. Or maybe I've already grieved and don't realize it. I mostly wish I could be there for my mom, who's really broken up over her passing.

So flist, how are you doing? How's things? What big fandom events am I missing out on? I've missed you guys! <3

(P.S. Happy birthday to [ profile] dolnmoon!!! I hope you have a fantastic day :) Hugs and kisses!)
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I'll be throwing away my old broken down computer table and packing up my computer in a day or two, so one more post before I move :)

Packing and cleaning is stressful as hell, but it's going as smoothly as that stuff can go. I'm confident we'll have at least half a day to rest up before the day of the move.

Still having trouble sleeping, but I sleep when I can and work when I can.

I really look forward to being in the new place. Not only does it have all those other positives I talked about, it's also generally at least 10 degrees cooler than it is here. I'm excited about getting an actual autumn.

I'm on the fence about signing up for two current SPN challenges/exchanges. I guess once I move and get unpacked I'll see how I feel.

I'm kind of interested in Stucky right now, and would love to have some good Stucky podfics to listen to for when I can't sleep/when I'm working around the apartment/while I'm on the road. Any recs? If not, I might just go to the podfic site and search for some.

I still miss you guys. Hopefully I'll be back around soon in a more active role on LJ. And I'll figure out what this imzy? thing is. And I'd like to do the 100 days of Happy meme because I need the positivity in my life/on my LJ, but I'll probably knock it down to 15 or 20 days.

I'll see you guys in a week or so!
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So, after being robbed at gunpoint in the parking lot of my apartment complex, my boyfriend and I decided we needed to get the fuck out of here. His mother is helping us with some moving costs, and she also helped me compose the letter to the office explaining that we need to leave and asking that we be released from the remainder of the lease.

Good news! Not only did they waive the last month and a half of the lease, they're letting us just pay up to our move-out date (Sept. 15) instead of the full month of September. So that gives us a little extra to cover electric deposit, and maybe internet start-up costs. I don't remember how much these things are... we'll find out today when J calls.

I've been all over the place emotionally/mentally. I've been sleeping in like, 2-4 hour shifts, and the amount of shifts I have each day varies. I fall asleep, and then I wake up, all groggy and grumpy. We've been packing and cleaning, and I have days where I work all day and it feels like I've gotten nothing done. But I also have satisfying days when it feels like I got a good chunk of work done.

When I can't sleep at night I watch shitty horror movies on Netflix lol. I have seen some stinkers in the past two weeks, haha. I've been trying to watch Stranger Things because I hear good things about it, but I just can't concentrate enough to remember what's happened in past episodes, piece things together in a 13-episode series. I'll probably watch it when we get to the new town we're moving to.

If you want my new address, leave me a comment or send me a PM. We'll be there on the 16th of this month.

Sadly, I haven't been able to keep up with LJ lately. I hope everyone's doing okay, and that fandom is still chugging along. I've already packed my tablet and my laptop, and I don't have any fics I'm working on, and I'm a little sad that SPN fandom is not so important to me right now.

I think I'm really depressed. Even before the robbery I was listless and sleeping too much and I just didn't give a damn about a lot of stuff that I really should give a damn about, and since the robbery it's been even worse. It doesn't help that I have a tendency to get restless at night, and now I just can't make myself go outside after dark, so all I can do is like, pace around and try to find things to do. I usually can find something to do - it's not like there's not a lot of packing and cleaning yet to be done - but it's unsatisfying. I'd much rather take a drive.

I am looking forward to being moved, though. We're moving from the 2nd most dangerous city in Texas to a town where people still leave their doors unlocked, and there's like, almost zero crime. Maybe a few thefts a year. Plus the place we're moving to has a nice public swimming pool with good adult swim hours, a lot of good thrift shops, lots of lakes and rivers within close driving distance, low cost of living, and a good mental health support system. We'll also be on the bottom floor of an apt. complex instead of the top floor, so I can play my dance games. I wish we were there already.

Anyway, I miss you guys, and I hope to be more active in fandom again once we get settled in. Love your faces <3
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Maybe NSFW! music playing, watch your volume!

Tonight I'm just going to try to actually have fun drawing, so I will probably be working on some OCs. May do something else if that's not working for me : ) I'll be on for an hour or so, then maybe on again later tonight. Drop in if you like, I'd love to have the company! <3

I should be back on later tonight! : )
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i'm having a tough time of it but i'll make a personal post later

For now though, some awesome people are putting together an awesome Bang!

It's a low key, DELICIOUSLY HORRIFIC fest, with small wordcount requirements (3k or more!) and it is in the genre most dear to my heart. Im sorely tempted to participate either as a writer or an artist OR BOTH, but I'll decide soon. Author signups start tomorrow and go on for about 10 days, so seriously consider entering this! I know I will be eating up the stories and art when they come around :)
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Probably NSFW! music playing, watch your volume!

Tonight I'm just going to try to actually have fun drawing, so I will be working on who knows what! could be any fandom. I may be asking for prompts, and maybe working off my prompt journal from a while back. Drop in if you like, I'd love to have the company! <3

(And I know Show is on, but please no spoilers! I won't be able to watch until tomorrow night)
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You guys you guys I got more art for [ profile] quicky_bang! The lovely [ profile] milly_gal stepped up this time and claimed my fic Simulacrum :)

You can find the art here (NSFW!)

Go and check it out and give her some love :) Thanks so much, milly! I'll be going in later to add links to the art I've received for the [ profile] quicky_bang in my fic posts. How exciting!

p.s. [ profile] quicky_bang still needs artists. It's a low-pressure, one-month turnaround event, with some great fics up for arting. Go and give it a look, if you haven't already!


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