Yaaaawn + Love Meme <3
May. 20th, 2015 07:22 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
The "Yawn" has nothing to do with the Love Meme!
So I got about 3 hours of sleep, but now I can't go back to bed because I'm waiting on a package from a friend. My bf went to bed a bit ago, and once he gets up I'm going back to sleep. Sleeping in shifts, yay.
So now I'm eating ramen noodles (waiting for them to cool down actually) and trying to figure out what to do today. Livestream some porn? record a podfic? livestream while I record a podfic (I've sat in on a few of those, and they were fun, but I don't know if anyone would come) (but then again not many people have been coming to my art LSes either, and I can't figure out why o: ) Clean the house? work on my masterpost? post some stuff to my patreon page today? i need to get around to making up WIP strips of my last few pics. watch some American Horror Story? so many options, and yet I'm just too tired to decide, lol.
In the mental health department, I've been doing... better than April. I've been having a lot of panic attacks though, and I need to talk to my doc, because I think maybe my body's gotten too used to the Valium and it doesn't really work any more. Same thing happened to me with clonazepam a few years ago, which is why I switched. I had an appointment with my therapist yesterday. I spent most of it bawling my eyes out. The depression is still kicking me down a bit, but I'm kind of used to it. Doesn't make it suck any less, though. I've been thinking about going off my meds for a while, just to see if I could get some of that good ol' manic energy back, but I tell myself I'm too smart and responsible for that. (ETA: not actually going to go off my meds, more like just fantasizing about it, don't worry!)
Maybe I should put this in the personal filter, but it's not TOO too personal.
Which, btw, I've made quite a few new friends since I set up that filter. If you'd like to be included in it - I talk about mental illness, alcoholism, and some triggery personal stuff - let me know, and if I'm familiar enough with you or if we seem to have some things in common, I'll happily add you. I don't post super-often in that filter. Also, if you're in the filter and don't want to be any more, let me know and I'll take you out, no feelings hurt <3
The love meme has really been a nice boost though, oh man, and it's really helped me out <3 Thank you for all the kind things you've said! It's such a beautiful idea, and I love reading all the comments everyone leaves for everyone. I need to go and look at it again and see who else has posted since last I checked. If you're in there and I missed you, I still love you! I love all you guys <3 The SPN community is so wonderful :)
So I got about 3 hours of sleep, but now I can't go back to bed because I'm waiting on a package from a friend. My bf went to bed a bit ago, and once he gets up I'm going back to sleep. Sleeping in shifts, yay.
So now I'm eating ramen noodles (waiting for them to cool down actually) and trying to figure out what to do today. Livestream some porn? record a podfic? livestream while I record a podfic (I've sat in on a few of those, and they were fun, but I don't know if anyone would come) (but then again not many people have been coming to my art LSes either, and I can't figure out why o: ) Clean the house? work on my masterpost? post some stuff to my patreon page today? i need to get around to making up WIP strips of my last few pics. watch some American Horror Story? so many options, and yet I'm just too tired to decide, lol.
In the mental health department, I've been doing... better than April. I've been having a lot of panic attacks though, and I need to talk to my doc, because I think maybe my body's gotten too used to the Valium and it doesn't really work any more. Same thing happened to me with clonazepam a few years ago, which is why I switched. I had an appointment with my therapist yesterday. I spent most of it bawling my eyes out. The depression is still kicking me down a bit, but I'm kind of used to it. Doesn't make it suck any less, though. I've been thinking about going off my meds for a while, just to see if I could get some of that good ol' manic energy back, but I tell myself I'm too smart and responsible for that. (ETA: not actually going to go off my meds, more like just fantasizing about it, don't worry!)
Maybe I should put this in the personal filter, but it's not TOO too personal.
Which, btw, I've made quite a few new friends since I set up that filter. If you'd like to be included in it - I talk about mental illness, alcoholism, and some triggery personal stuff - let me know, and if I'm familiar enough with you or if we seem to have some things in common, I'll happily add you. I don't post super-often in that filter. Also, if you're in the filter and don't want to be any more, let me know and I'll take you out, no feelings hurt <3
The love meme has really been a nice boost though, oh man, and it's really helped me out <3 Thank you for all the kind things you've said! It's such a beautiful idea, and I love reading all the comments everyone leaves for everyone. I need to go and look at it again and see who else has posted since last I checked. If you're in there and I missed you, I still love you! I love all you guys <3 The SPN community is so wonderful :)