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[badbastion]

I've been off my meds since the end of October. I'm back on most of them now, or reasonable facsimiles thereof, thanks to a very sympathetic doctor and Walmart's $4 scrip plan. One of them was still $40, but I had to have it, it's my most helpful one. But I'm still not right in the head. This sucks.

I'm working like 15 hours a week at a local pizza place, and I've already called in a few times in the two months I've been working there. I had a full-on, hyperventilating, sobbing panic freakout at work the other day, and I had to explain to my boss what my deal was. She was also sympathetic, but it was so shaming and embarrassing.

She actually wanted to promote me before this happened. I don't know where that stands now.

So yeah, I'm just freaking out now. I have a few days off to get used to the new truncated meds (they couldn't get me back on two of them because the price was prohibitive, like $900 each or something -__-) but hopefully I'll be better when I go back to work on Tuesday.

I wish I had a more positive post, hopefully I will soon.

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[amberdreams.livejournal.com]

Try not to freak out too much, though I know just saying that isn't much help. But please don't be embarrassed about having a panic attack - would you be embarrassed or ashamed if you'd had a heart attack, or one of your lungs had collapsed or something like that? No, of course you wouldn't - because they would have just hit you out of the blue, with nothing you could have done to stop them. The panic is the same thing.

I hope the meds work for you and things do start turning around soon. You deserve a bit of luck!

[badbastion.livejournal.com]

It's really hard not to freak out, or to be embarrassed. Like, heart attacks or collapsed lungs don't have the same social stigma as panic attacks/craziness, and I can't help but to take that into account. I'm trying, though. I had another fit today at work, and that's not helping anything.

Thank you! I hope they work out too, and soon. I appreciate it! <3