Hiatusing probably

[badbastion]

I think I'm going to take a short hiatus from fandom. I think. Reading my flist, which is full of incredible, smart, funny, talented people, has been perversely depressing me? Idk either. I'm still going to keep an eye on wedraweveryday, and I'm still working on commissions and drawing stuff offline, but other than that I probably won't be around much.

You guys keep being awesome, and I'll be back around sooner or later :)

I just wanted to ETA to add that if you're posting stuff about your RL, that's not what's bothering me, so don't feel bad or anything! Strangely, it's the happy posts that make me the saddest.

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[badbastion.livejournal.com]

Maybe that's it, that hadn't even occurred to me. Not quie sure how I feel about that, lol.

Thank you for the hugs and well wishes. You're always so kind <3 I hope things are going well with you; I've read your posts but haven't really known what to say, but I wish th best for you and hope that your change is positive.

<3<3<3

[quickreaver.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I was kinda thinking the same thing firesign was. It sucks peeking in at someone having fun when you can't find it in you or seem to join in. Sounds like a little depression rearing it's head, yeah? At any rate, you do what you feel is best for you! We'll keep the bed warm. ;)

[badbastion.livejournal.com]

Yeah, there's some depression going on. I didn't realize it but it's like you say, plus a kind of sadness over the fact that I don't enjoy things the way I used to? Whether that was a month ago or years ago.

But I'll be back around, and I'll know who to press my cold feet on ;)

[quickreaver.livejournal.com]

Yanno, I was musing on this. I totally get the sadness over not enjoying things the way we used to. I think eventually, you just have to adjust your expectations. Nothing stays the same forever; change is as certain as death and taxes, right? Things change, we change...mourning that loss is understandable. Maybe once you accept that it's okay and normal and expected for this to happen, you can reassess how you feel...

And that's your crappy armchair psychiatry for the day. I'll shut up now...

[badbastion.livejournal.com]

No need to shut up :) I need to be reminded sometimes. This is something I talk to my therapist about sometimes, adjusting expectations, especially when they come to myself. I've gotten better about treating myself kindly, but I need to be reminded a lot that maybe I need to apply that same filter to other things. Like, the world, lol. Sincerely, thank you for reminding me.

And thanks for showing my your icon pic again *holds it tight* Do you have a full-sized version somewhere that I could use as a wallpaper? I love it so so much.

[quickreaver.livejournal.com]

No, seriously, tell me to shut up whenever I get too mouthy! Mostly, I'm working things out for myself too. This just happened to hit me over eggplant parm and an Old Fahioned at Olive Garden. Of all places. My brain, I swear.

And yes, I do have a larger pic of The Flock. (I forgot to tag it, d'oh!)

http://ic.pics.livejournal.com/quickreaver/14734378/91452/91452_original.jpg

[badbastion.livejournal.com]

It is now my desktop, I have no regrets :]