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[badbastion]

I've been off my meds since the end of October. I'm back on most of them now, or reasonable facsimiles thereof, thanks to a very sympathetic doctor and Walmart's $4 scrip plan. One of them was still $40, but I had to have it, it's my most helpful one. But I'm still not right in the head. This sucks.

I'm working like 15 hours a week at a local pizza place, and I've already called in a few times in the two months I've been working there. I had a full-on, hyperventilating, sobbing panic freakout at work the other day, and I had to explain to my boss what my deal was. She was also sympathetic, but it was so shaming and embarrassing.

She actually wanted to promote me before this happened. I don't know where that stands now.

So yeah, I'm just freaking out now. I have a few days off to get used to the new truncated meds (they couldn't get me back on two of them because the price was prohibitive, like $900 each or something -__-) but hopefully I'll be better when I go back to work on Tuesday.

I wish I had a more positive post, hopefully I will soon.

Comments

[dizzojay.livejournal.com]

I'm glad to hear your boss was sympathetic to you, but you have no need to feel embarrassed or ashamed about this episode. Health issues of various sorts happen all the time.

I hope your new meds help - sending positive thoughts your way x

[badbastion.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much! Ah, it's hard to stay positive about panic attacks though - mental health issues are so stigmatized, it's hard to get away from the "crazy" label. I'm trying, though. I still haven't revealed that I'm on disability, I don't know if I should or not.

Thank you! *hugs*